Right now I feel like I hate everything. School feels "wrong" somehow. When I don't "get" something I tend to try harder. But if I still fail I tend to throw my hands up and give up. I usually come back to it, better for failing the first time. But I can't afford to fail this. I can't afford a do-over. I get one chance at this. I wish I just "got" it, because the alternative makes me sick and is making me feel depressed.